The fact that you are willing to share this information is a good sign. It shows that you are not in denial. I fell ill with depression about four years ago. Things were bad at the time, and I really didn't plan on staying around too long. Then... my wife got pregnant and it took us by surprise. My son is 2 now, and I can honestly say he saved my life. I'm not going to sit here and tell you to have a baby. Hell, you might already have kids. Still, finding things you do will definitely help take your mind off the negativity. Everyone's circumstances are different, though.